I AM SMRITI RAI

Traditional bread served with the salted truth Sprinkled a little humour in a hope to make it less painful My body could relate to, neither the salt nor the humour, I was running late for work. And I won't be going back to the same restaurant for a long time! India said she always had this feeling of ever-present melancholy Mine is not melancholy, Mine is an October tree in the middle of a small town Graciously letting go of the green leaves but misplaced… Rooted on the face of the earth Floating somehow... Change is difficult, change is different But Octobers are pretty in the UK With its mustard faded pointed leaves and a pink-brown shoulder, I guess change is pleasing to the eyes of an observer passing by, Change doesn't need sprinkling and it doesn't make you feel bad the next morning, It allows you to be silent with a voice of wisdom. It breathes if you allow it to, It is ever-e

I got inspired to write after a long time... I was walking back home from the gym. It was foggy and not that cold. I like this kind of weather in winter. The street lights seemed cozy! I felt so happy. I am actually really happy these days and I thought I would share it authentically this time because there were times I would hold back in sharing how happy I was! As I mature, I am really understanding that I cannot delay my happiness. I don't have to save my happiness for some hypothetical future that does not exist. So, I just felt happy not because of anyone or anything. I felt happy just because! After my 'dark days' in Eastbourne, I came back home. If I look back at it there were many good things but emotion-wise I was feeling all sorts of things, most of all, I felt so alone... So even though I was there only for two months I felt like I was there for quite some time! I always compared my situations with others and felt obligated not to feel sad because there are so

When I look back at things, I am in awe at how intricately our experiences are designed. My friend from University suggested me videos by Nouman Ali Khan and in one of his videos, he says " you experience things for the benefit of others" I sat with this sentence, although, I didn't quite understand what it meant, I felt there was something meaningful in this sentence for me. And then, at work, one Korean student comes to me for help - frustrated, she's been crying for days and she wanted to move out from her current host family. She came with the long list of explanations, numbered, why she wanted to move out. It was my job not to promise her anything, but I could feel what she was feeling. During my first year at University, I hated my residence. I wanted to move out so bad and every day I went to the reception to ask for a change. They couldn't help me. Now, when I look back it, I was uncomfortable because of the new place, new culture and new people but a